Okay, you guys, chemo #3 was last Monday and its nasties are well underway. Plus, I fasted for three days. You did not want to be my husband for any of those days. I may or may not have tried to get everyone around me to describe every meal they were eating. But I will get to all of that super fun stuff next time.
Right now, I am on a mission. I’ve been going back and forth about this, but I really only plan on having cancer this once. (Let’s just pretend it was in the plans. In which case, do not come to me for any life coaching. Uh, duh.) You see, I try to keep positive, but truthfully, I could really use something to look forward to. So I’m MAKING A WISH! For real, you guys. And I need your help. First, I’ll lay it on you.
Boom! Many of you are not surprised, I know. Those of you near and dear to me know of my undying love for Hanson and the immeasurable joy they have brought to my life over the last 17! years. (Wow, our relationship can almost vote, or get a tattoo, or, like, pawn stuff at a pawn shop while buying a lottery ticket and opening a call for jury duty.) For you others, I will try to explain – something I’m not actually sure that I can do.
When it comes right down to it, Hanson is home to me. I know you may only know of “Mmmbop,” but they didn’t stop there and neither did I. I feel like we have grown up together. There have been the highest of highs — like the time I saw them play in the middle of the Atlantic ocean under the moon and stars until 3 AM — and some pretty funny lows — like the time I left in the middle of a show because the set list was making me mad and I was so hungry I was “seeing” cheeseburgers.
There are songs that immediately make me feel 16 and just so happy (Hello, “Minute Without You!”), and there are those that have helped me through some pretty tough stuff. Like when I didn’t know how to deal in high school, or when my mom died. There is a song that my daughter is named after (along with “Penny Lane”), and there are even songs that I don’t like. There are songs that I’ll never forget hearing for the first time and some that I will always jumble their lyrics.
And the shows. Around 40 shows in the last seventeen years. With my mom, with my best friend, friends I don’t see anymore, my husband, my brother… It’s like stepping into an old friend’s home and picking up where you left off. And you just know it’s going to give you what you need. And make you smile (and dance). And reconnect you to a part of yourself that is only for you. Maybe it’s the Cardinals for you. Or hunting. Or crafting. Or a certain movie or video game. Or maybe you understand because you feel the same way about The Cure. I don’t know.
What I do know is that these guys make me straight up happy, and on this journey, having something to look forward to after each chemo session has made such a difference. Whether it has been a family birthday party, dinner with friends, fireworks at my in-laws’, or a trivia night with my best friends, it’s what I look forward to when I’m not feeling so hot and, honestly, feeling a little left out of the world. And let’s face it, in the last year, my husband and I have brought another new life into this house (cue the Lion King music) AND are fighting this crazy cancer battle together. We could use a little refresh (with Taylor Hanson on my other arm, of course).
So here’s what I have been dreaming about. It’s five days and four nights worth of sun and ocean and Hanson performing at night. I want it bad, you guys. Picture me smiling through the rest of my chemo. Picture me throwing wigs in the air and flashing prosthetic boobs and chest bumping my husband. I need this.
So I’m not really sure how to make this thing happen so let’s just try to get this thing into the hands of my boys. Or any of your ideas are welcome!
www.facebook.com/hansonmusic <—I can’t figure out how to post something to their page though.
Share the crap out of it. On your page. On their page. Everywhere! It would seriously make my day. Get your dogsitter’s aunt’s best friend’s mailman to share it. Get your first grade teacher and your favorite barista to share it. I think I’ll going to go ask my grandpa to open a twitter account so he can share it. Let’s just somehow make this happen because, in my book, cancer sucks and Hanson is awesome.